My sweet friend Mindy posted a really nice complement about me on her blog. It made me feel like all this silly blogging is worthwhile if we can inspire each other. I feel like there is so much good in this world. All we have to do if focus on it.
This morning I woke up feeling so overwhelmed with gratitude for not only my life now, but for the possibility of good things to come. I headed off with Bentley in the jogging stroller and just couldn't shake this feeling of overwhelming gratitude. In fact, I got kind of choked up thinking of all my blessings and that, coupled with the fact that I was running and pushing a 20 lb. baby, I almost couldn't breathe for a minute. I feel like this morning was a special gift. I usually don't focus on being grateful until the end of my run when I am almost back home. I make a trip through a graveyard near my house for this purpose. I heard Nicole Kidman say once that she liked graveyards because they make her feel small--or something to that effect. I agree. It just brings so much perspective for me to start the day. It reminds me that life goes on after death and that reminds me to focus on the things that do last, like family and knowledge. The other purpose for going through a graveyard is that I can talk out loud without anyone thinking I'm crazy (except for the guy mowing the lawn). I have this thing I say over and over again. I got it from Anthony Robbins: "God's wealth circulates in my life! It's what flows to me as avalanches of abundance! All my needs, desires, and goals are met instantaneously by infinite intelligence. And I give thanks for all God's riches for I'm one with God and God is everything!" (I added the !'s.) And then I think about all of my blessings starting with my family and circling outward and then I continue to include things that haven't happened yet but that I'm sure are headed my way. By the time I get home I feel GREAT!
Today was lovely, I got at least an hour of silence. Which is a miracle at our house. And my friend Sarah gave me some pretty tomatoes and yummy zucchini bread. And I don't know what happened but by bedtime (the kid's bedtime) I didn't think I was gonna make it. I was feeling very inadequate. And overwhelmed by my self imposed ridiculously impossible to do list. I have a huge problem with focus. I can't. I have a lot of unfinished projects and I'm spending a lot of my time doing things that aren't my most important priorities. Like cleaning.
Today I'm grateful for all the different people around me. I feel so inspired by Mindy's desire to learn, Mandee's perfectionism, Katie's persistence, Heather's generosity of spirit, Chris's vision and Sarah's workouts! I'm thankful for my flaws. Which are abundant. But I love any opportunity to improve myself. I hope that I can take the good I see in others and apply it to myself without adding too much pressure, but just enjoy the fact that I'm teachable and ready to make at least some of my faults into strengths. And when I can't I'll just lean on them to fill the gaps in myself. That's what friends are for, right! And I'm grateful for hard times. Because that's when I stretch myself the most. And I know that things will get abundantly better. I know that! And I'm grateful for Mia's awesome piece on So You Think You Can Dance last night! I so cried! :)